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It's really hard to be Mom and it's harder to be a good mom too.
Something happened with my friend that i love like my sister.
I knew she was prenent for a while and she looked be happy.
She said that when she was sick and wanted to vomit, she was glad to be mother.
Her income was not good and her boyfriend didn't have full time job, so she had to try double before giving birth.
This resulted, she was pain her tummy after absorption any bleeding. She tried to take a rest at home but it was too late. Yesterday morning, It was happened to her. (Misscarried) 
She told me that she cried a lot and felt pressured and she felt guilty that the miscarriage.
I tried to comfort her **This may be a first pregnancy. Makes you think does not matter, so you tried to continue your work**. She blamed herself because of her.
I softly told her that next time you know what you should do
and take care herself and should listen to the advice of all.
Today I went to her apartment with pizza. I knew It was not good food but It was better than another thing i couldn't find in the morning. She could eat anything since yesterday even trying to eat. I managed to call a doctor and took her to the hospital.
I tried to placate her comfortable.
 After she recieved the check then she felt relief.
Everything go well now. I feel happy for her.
Hope that she would return to the fomer soon.
I know It's really difficult to have a child because you don't know what will happen to you.
When a child is born. Raising it to him to be a good person.
This is what I called for The Human.

Today I chated to a guy on msn. He asked me about my type.
I replied that I don't know. I know when he comes.
Everybody will look at FACE first and the other thing comes second.
I agree with this.
Almost girls start love at 0 percent to 100 percent. Guys start 100 percent to 0 percent.
 It likes when he picks someone and then he gets a long with her.
after that he changes his mind. It decrease 100 to 0, don't it?
When I was young, I thought about boyfriend because all of my friends, they had boyfriend but I only had no one.
So I thought it's not matter!! Just picked someone and if we inappropriate each other. I will denouce with him.
Now I completely realize. I want the one love me than I love
because I appreciate every thing he gives to me. Then at last ,I will love him.
Someone ask me if you find one? I truely tell them that not yet.
Someone said I'm too picky girl. How I can answer them?
It's not like that. I want to choose the best one can live with all my life.
Sometime I feel lonely but I try to think possitive. I have freedom and don't think of someone's behind me.
It's pretty hard to find someone get a long with you forever.